Saturday, November 21, 2009

Someting to call my OWN

i want it. i deserve it. i will respect it.

dat word LOVE.

that word really scares me. i guess cause when yu start sayin dat yu finally let dat person see yu .the person yu been looking in the mirrior for all so long.

i can't hate. everybody wants it at one time even if they had it. nd lost it.

i dnt wanna sound like a lil girl with fairy tales. cause my life is far from a fairy tale.
i can say i neva been in love. but then again im still young. i keep telin myself dat cause it gives me reason to look for it. to give new ish a try.

with every new. comes the old.

Am I Ready...........

Far From The End.

iDnt get myself at all.
Dats a problem, but then again it's my problem and not everybody else.
iDecide to start writin how i feel instead of. bullshitin. nd keepin everything to myself.
cause in the end the shit erks the hell out of me.

Have you ever felt like everything you do.ends up makin yu happy for a second then it ends up hurting you.what fuckery...
i find myself questionin everything i say nd do. nd that goes for everybody around me. i observe more.. stuff dat gets to me i can no longer hold it in. i must speak my mind.

i'll be damn if i let somebody walk ova me.disrespect me. treat me in a way i dnt deserve.

Sheesh i feel i do give 100 in somethings. dat involves my feelins. not in the stuff i should be giving 100 in. SMH. like i said its my problem. dat i must solve. to be continue......

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Once Upon A Time

Sooo. I was asked do i believe in Love.
well to be honest i dnt know wat it is to not believe in it. never told anybody i love them.
I Dnt like to get caught up. nd risk gettin my feelings hurt.
Dnt Get me wrong i do care alot bout ppl. in my life. ppl i know would be there for me. And I'm Happy.

But Sometimes i just want that simple 90's love song type love, relationship.
Until then i'll keep what i got. it keeps a smile on my face.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Happy Birthday To Me

Today is My birthday (Yup.Yup)
i survive another year. lol. i turned the wonderful 19.
later on today i goin to the movies. wit a group of my friends.possibly my baby.nd my big bro.
still workin on my plans. welll. i'll be back lata hopeful later wit pic of my outfit. lol

Happy Birthday Cherei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

lol. iNEED a job . i like to shop nd im always. BROKE.
oh how i hate dat word.sheessh its so hard.
i dnt know where to start.
i need sum help.

im tryin not to get side track but its hard when yu dnt get a call back. so how will i know if im doin it rite????
Question Question So MANY......
Ttyl Im Job Hunting =) Fingas Crosssed.

Um Okay Follow...

So i Decide to Say It Once Again.
If I Hav'nt Said It Enough.LOl.
Still Gettin The Hang Of It So Bear With Me.
Nd No This Will Not Stop Me From Bloggin
Cause Im Back Nd Bout To Bring It. (Lmao) ----Dat Was So Corney Of Me.

Follow My Footsteps nd I'll Follow Yours.

My Lifes Lessons

Ahh, who wanna bet us that we don't touch leathers
Stack cheddars forever, live treacherous all the et ceteras
To the death of us, me and my confidants, we shine
You feel the ambiance, y'all niggaz just rhyme
By the ounce dough accumulates like snow
We don't just shine, we illuminate the whole show; you feel me?"-Jay Z (Dead President)Reasonable Doubt {June 25, 1996}<