Friday, March 26, 2010

With love Came Hurt.

this keepin things to myself ain't helpin me no more. sheesh when i thought it would it doesnt i have a up nd down life once im happy it seems like its just for a second. i envy girls in relationship cause i always give some of my all just to be turned away. its crazy such a sweet person lie myself i really anna know how ppl see me. lately all i do is cry. nd cry. my heart is hurting badly. im afraid to say what i feel cause i dnt know if the out come would be good or bad. this men does some amazin things to me. he makes me smile. he makes me laugh. he makes me feel even more beautiful. he makes me comfortable. but he also makes me feel like my self value is low. he pushes me away. he hurts my emotions bad. he controls my heart but not my mind. i cant hel but think about him. i want him to be with me. but imafraid he doesnt want the same. im tryna show him just what i mean, im here for him i will always be here. i jus want a chance. yes i do want a relationship never been in a real one. smh.but yet again im still young. something bout him i just can't leave as much as ppl say i should... ima take a leap of faith nd go for it cause with love comes hut.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

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Where have i been????? Today not even a good day to be bloggin.. im to mad right now. just thought i'll check in.... i'll be back soon hopefully. -___-

My Lifes Lessons

Ahh, who wanna bet us that we don't touch leathers
Stack cheddars forever, live treacherous all the et ceteras
To the death of us, me and my confidants, we shine
You feel the ambiance, y'all niggaz just rhyme
By the ounce dough accumulates like snow
We don't just shine, we illuminate the whole show; you feel me?"-Jay Z (Dead President)Reasonable Doubt {June 25, 1996}<