(Sighs)

Slowly, nd i mean slowly I'm learnin a better way of life.. a way of life that's just for me... i remember alot its some things i wish never happened to me. but i come to realize trials nd tribulations make you the person you are today... i give alot just to get little back.. my confidence is rocky.. one minute I'm all bout me. I'm more pretty than others then that fcker name insecurity sneaks up on me.. my love life sucks ass cheeks. like nothing ever seems to go my way i guess that's life... it took me this long to realized that... I'm so disappointed bout that. I'm really concentrating on bettering myself one day at a time right..but i know that at the end of the day i really have no one to share my day with at least the person i wanna share it with.. without being to clingy to him. i say little since i dnt wanna get my feelings hurt again.. in reality its crazy how much he makes me happy. but i wonder is that true or is that just what my hearts wants. i also realize today. i have another heart feelin the same pain..=( nd i thought that would make me happy hearin that. but it doesn't ... I'm not that heartless Thank God... i at least want thing to go well for me i keep wondering if its around the corner for me just to get there and nothings there i guess i have to wait my turn.. sad case of lovin... day by day i struggle with my inner demons . i just hope that i can exscape them since i have them for so long...... CHOW.