Crazy Glue the Piece

soooo. lately all i tweet. blog or speak about is LOVE. i keep thinking bout it to the point of silence. i care to realize that somethings are a blessing in disgust....

Tha L- Word

Love is not simply it takes time to grow. nd mature. if yu feel yu have a good thing dnt give up on it. work it out till theres no more workin out... trust nd believe if yu lookin for love. love could have already found yu. it's just waitin for yu to realize it......

a {run} A way

Sometimes i Feel NUMB. just like a picture in a FRAME. just a moment take it in just a thought from my brain like a tear from my eye that has dried. like a long awaited sleep. a nightmare that wont end. a dream that will never come. Take it in and Just BREATH..........

UNSPOKEN Like Infidelity

So i never cheated before... but when i did lose interest in a person. i usually told them to they faces. nd then go M.I.A. cause i dnt wanna discuss why I'm doin such a thing....



In Reality I never had a real relationships. more like flings that went wrong.... my heart has been beat up. stomp on.broken. into pieces. till the point of not no longer beatin correctly.. hmmm such a shame. right. i come to deal with it in silence. stayin to myself... but now that has changed... this one person who came it to my life when i was in one of my numbin stages. warmed up a spot in my dead heart nd started it beatin. as we continued our lil thing. with yet no commitment. i grew to appreciate nd cherish this. to the point my heart started feelin funny a week ago...



every time i would talk to him or see him. touch him. my heart skipped beats. i would be afraid to say certain things. his opions started matterin to me. he is the closes person to ever be allowed to get that close to me... nd all while this is happenin me being blinded by this new feeling. he lost interested or so i assumed. actions speak louder than words.... nd i started hearin my heart break very slowly. .. lately i been in pain so bad... to the point of numbness. I'm in a blank stage of my life. i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. i use to have so much hope in us. now its a ? mark....



do i still believe there could be a us..... well of course. I'm in love...but at the same time. I'm becomin a broken heart lost soul..... i told him.. nd i use to be able to tell what he would say. but now I'm so confused. my feelings have took over...


i hate how this is going. why can't i have what everybody else seems to be havin... the worst pain known to mankind is LOVING SOMEONE ND NOT KNOWIN IF THEY LOVE YU BACK THE SAME... everyday the pain hurts more nd more. i want it to stop. so i sleep my days away. but damn how i still dream bout them. to the point of wakin me up at night. i sit nd think to myself alot. what can i do to fix this. i come up with blanks.... I'm just so tired.. mentally,physically,emotionally................

Incomplete.

i swear i belive im boarderline crazy... like everything in my life is incomplete. i feel like i been in the same spot for the past 9 months of my life. nothin every seems to stay good. its like buyin a glass vase. yea it may look pretty but look a lil closer nd the shit got a damn crack in it. so yu know its just a matter of time before the shit breaks....


im always tryna find happiness in all the wroung places. i keep thinkin bout what i want. instead of what i need..smh. i look for a love. but yet i hate majority of everything. i put a smile on my face. cause i hate for ppl to ask whats wrong... i like to keep my feelings to myself. i admit i am a very stubborn person. but IDGAF in words.ppl always hurt other ppl to make themselves feel better.



ventin like a motherfcker.......

With love Came Hurt.

this keepin things to myself ain't helpin me no more. sheesh when i thought it would it doesnt i have a up nd down life once im happy it seems like its just for a second. i envy girls in relationship cause i always give some of my all just to be turned away. its crazy such a sweet person lie myself i really anna know how ppl see me. lately all i do is cry. nd cry. my heart is hurting badly. im afraid to say what i feel cause i dnt know if the out come would be good or bad. this men does some amazin things to me. he makes me smile. he makes me laugh. he makes me feel even more beautiful. he makes me comfortable. but he also makes me feel like my self value is low. he pushes me away. he hurts my emotions bad. he controls my heart but not my mind. i cant hel but think about him. i want him to be with me. but imafraid he doesnt want the same. im tryna show him just what i mean, im here for him i will always be here. i jus want a chance. yes i do want a relationship never been in a real one. smh.but yet again im still young. something bout him i just can't leave as much as ppl say i should... ima take a leap of faith nd go for it cause with love comes hut.

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Where have i been????? Today not even a good day to be bloggin.. im to mad right now. just thought i'll check in.... i'll be back soon hopefully. -___-